November 23 list

1.  So many years spent on the edge of giving up

2.  Pastels again out the window. 

     A web of branches, angled winter sunlight, stripped paint, getting dark now.

     Our world is dying and it is incredibly beautiful.

     Our only responsibility is to care for and attend to and love it, and to love each other

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4.   Youth is a precipice because you really don’t know, as a 16 year old, if you’re going to survive this life. And everything you do and experience is evidence for and to the contrary of this supposition; small things take on great weight. So the metaphor of a bird leaving the nest really makes sense: you are 18 and are on your decent downward towards the ground, having just jumped out the the nest, and you need to figure out how to fly before you hit the ground and die. Well into your 20s, you start to feel yourself flying and gliding along. But the stakes are real high when you’re young and on a precipice. 

 

5.  This black bread they have in Estonia, and specifically the one grocery store I would go to, where I got mint for Andrew and the face creme I still use, though it is almost out. This black bread they have in Estonia.